Waiting in vain.... (anglais)

I feel I've had my fair share of bad luck in the last 7 years even though I don't remember having broken any mirrors...... I feel like this wait is never going to end. I've been through all the emotions, I remember getting all excited because my period was a few hours late and I thought I was pregnant..... I remember crying in the bath because my period had arrived 1 whole day late and that to me seemed like a sure sigh that I was finally pregnant... *sigh*. That was so long ago, when I still believed it could happen. Now, like my doctor said, my name's not Mary and my husband's name isn't Joseph...so if you were holding your breath for a miracle I suggest you move on.... 7 years is a long time to be actively trying to get pregnant and getting doctors poking their noses up your tender bits and getting operated on and still not have what I'm looking for so dearly. I'm angry with Mother Nature for forgetting me. Why she's busy dishing babies out left right and centre to anyone willing to open their legs and at the same time completely ignoring me is now beyond me. I was listening to the news earlier on and I heard about a woman who killed 8 of her newborn babies and buried them in the garden.....8 babies....that could have been a dream come true for 8 women if Mother Nature had sent the stock to the right address, she must crazy!!!!

Anyway, enough of me feeling sorry for myself, life goes on! I shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself, there are people who are worse off out there. I already have a daughter and I should just be thankful for that instead of wanting more. Or should I really???? Is it not perfectly human to plan your life and want to achieve certain things at specific times in your life??? Is it not a sign of how you are so in control when you plan things and they happen as you plan them??? Is it not a sign of complete failure when you fail where the general population manages to succeed without any effort??? Is it not a sure sign that you are a complete failure when you fail after having succeeded without actually wanting to????

Since the world doesn't revolve around me, I guess life will go on and I will continue trying to make my dream come true.............as long as those irritating pregnant women stay out of my sight!!!